This post requires much digesting and so I can only imagine the thought requirement on your part since you're living it. As with all life changing decisions, I think you owe yourself some time to see every angle. As I was reading your debate on the "selective reduction" (can they make these terms any more offensive??) I was suddenly brought back to D and my marriage counseling. He told us that people don't discuss the what if's enough so that when one of those big ones come rearing up on us, we aren't prepared and on the same page. As always, your post is so inspirational to me. Maybe part of it is because we see eye to eye on so many of the big things. Your political views make so much sense to me, your religious view is spot on to my experience with God. I'll write you an e-mail later after I've thought a bit more, but I wanted you to know that we're still praying for you and Drew every day. Darrell (the least religious guy I've ever met) is also praying for you. We love you both!!