The "tight" feeling in my belly has also been leading me to rub lotion into it a lot, which I know is probably due to the growth spurt that the doctors told me would take place between 16 and 20 weeks. It'll be interesting to see if there is a more discernible difference to the bump in a couple more weeks.
A friend asked me earlier this week if I'm still feeling overwhelmingly blessed with this pregnancy, or if I'm starting to have complaints.
The answer is yes.
Every day, I'm definitely still in awe of the gift of life with which I've been blessed. Seeing and feeling Baby DeBo grow inside of me is the greatest experience of my life, truly. Sure, I still have my moments where I'm waiting for the hammer to fall, to receive the seemingly inevitable news of another unhappy ending, to have this wonderful blessing taken away. But luckily, these moments, these thoughts, are fewer and farther between as time goes on. And don't worry: I'm definitely not "wasting" my pregnancy by being afraid all the time. I know that whatever is meant to happen will happen, regardless of whether I'm prepared for it or not.
Even though I feel incredibly blessed, I still have my complaints: the tiredness, the lack of sleep, the having to pee all. the. time. It's funny how those "usual suspects" of typical pregnancy complaints don't take away from my thankfulness and utter happiness in continuing to have a healthy pregnancy. It actually helps me feel normal, rather than guilty, that the two can so easily co-exist.
-Em
