I am feeling very overwhelmed, sad, and frustrated today. My doctor has me on a pretty stringent "program" this month to work toward getting us pregnant again by the end of the year (her words, which of course we were happy to hear, even though it is a daunting task with what we are up against). Unfortunately, the first step of the process has not gone the way it is supposed to, which, in turn, has completely derailed the next six steps. I am waiting for a call back from the nurse who works for my doctor. Hopefully her call will shed some light on the situation and make it feel less bleak. It just sucks waiting. Not only for the call, but just in general. I need to not let this get me down, but I am not very good at that (never have been, but my patience is wearing so thin lately...I'm feeling near the end of my rope). What I wouldn't give to be "normal" for just a month or two. I hate my body. Why won't it just do what it's supposed to do for once? I just don't understand.

Please...give me the strength.

-Em