Thank you to those friends and family members who have helped me get to the point of feeling like the news we received yesterday is not so bleak (you know who you are). 

This cyst, and the surgical procedure required to remove it, is only a detour, not a roadblock.

It is something that, once taken care of, will hopefully make our "chances" easier.

It is just one more thing to endure along this journey (way too windy for my tastes, but who am I to say what my journey to having a child is supposed to be?).

This latest road bump, as with all its predecessors, will not break me.

I don't know what I'd do without the support of family and friends right now. It is very scary, even embarrassing, to share the details of what we're going through right now. I feel so vulnerable laying it all out on the table. But, at the same time, this is my built-in support system right now. I know that, if I didn't have this blog (or NaBloPoMo keeping me writing this month--something I really should extend into next month, actually), my reaction would probably be to keep most of these details to myself, tucked all up inside to torture me, and me alone. It is hard to bring up this subject with others, and I'm always worried that, one of these days, someone is just going to say, "Enough already! Honestly, Ember, we're sick of hearing about it!" And, well, I'm a little too fragile right now, I think, to hear those words.

So, thanks, you guys, for not saying that (even if you've thought it). Because I guess I need this. To sort out my thoughts on all that is going on right now, and, you know, not go completely nuts or dissolve down again into depression and isolation from the continual sadness and frustration I feel.

Thanks for putting up with me.

-Em